Little Miss Drama

My First Ultrasound

on October 20, 2012

I got so caught up with work and pregnancy stuff that I had no time to blog about my very first pregnancy. And now that I sort-of-have-the-time to do it, I have decided, why not (even if it’s already late)?!

I got pregnant in a country where pregnant unmarried women are not allowed to exist freely. So for almost four months, I have kept my pregnancy a secret to most people around me. Fortunately, I was still able to find a doctor who could help me get the regular check-ups that I needed at that time.

On my first ultrasound, I was scared. Scared that the people in the lab would ask me questions that would give away my secret and could lead me ending up in jail. Fortunately, I was not asked of my marital status. I found out I was really pregnant (4 pregnancy tests did not convince me it was real),. I was 7 weeks and a day pregnant. Then they let me listen to my baby’s heartbeat and I almost cried. How I wished at that time that the father of my child was with me and could hear the same thing. I know he would be just as ecstatic as I was. But to avoid too much attention and issues, I went there not with him but with a good friend instead.



I was the last patient at the lab. My friend and I left the place at 10pm. I talked to the father of my child and all I felt after was a disappointment from him. Yet, I composed myself, went home and told myself that I’m truly going to have a baby and whatever happens, I will be strong for this child.


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