Little Miss Drama


on April 19, 2014

I never thought it would happen this early when Joaqui would repeatedly say ‘daddy’ as if asking for his non-existent father.
Yesterday, he just kept saying the word over and over and I was unable to react right away. After he has said the word about five times already, that was when I asked him, “where is he (referring to his ‘daddy’)?” Joaqui answered, “bas (referring to labas meaning outside)”. I then told him yeah his father is outside, in a far place, with his girlfriend (like he would understand that so as not to say the D word again). Naturally, he still kept saying the word until I finally had to tell him, “Daddy? Dead!” then Joaqui started doing his fake cry as if he understood what I just said.

Honestly, I’m still not ready for any ‘daddy’ questions Joaqui may have. Thank goodness he’s only about two years old to start asking me about such stuff!

I’ve been thinking of the proper and right answer to the questions that my son could ask me one day such as: where’s daddy? why isn’t he around? will I ever get to meet him?

I still haven’t thought of any acceptable answer. Well, there may be no acceptable answer to such questions for any child but still I want to be able to properly explain things to him what our situation is, without him feeling abandoned or neglected by his own father. I know I ought to read some stuff about it soon.

This is what breaks every mother’s heart, still not being able to give your child everything that he needs no matter how you try. There’s nothing else I can do but to let him feel loved by the people around him everyday while growing up. And I pray that all this love would already be enough to make up for his father’s absence.


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